Kayden This memorial site was created in the memory of our beloved son Kayden AyatieNicholas Durant who was born asleep at 42 weeks on 13th April 2006 in Birmingham UK The name Kayden was chosen by his proud parents, his middle name was given in memory of his late great-grandfather and is an African name meaning "First born son" The name Nicholas was chosen by Kayden's older brother Darrien (who lives in Trinidad) Kayden will be forever in our hearts, forever loved and never forgotten. Thank you to everyone who has lit a candle or wrote a tribute to our beautiful baby boy Kayden.
Love, Light, Peace + Blessings
Andrea + Nigel He is an angel of God who grew his wings on
13th 2006
Good News! Good News! Good News! Kayden is going to be a big brother!! Expected in May 2007
Watch this space............
Welcome to Kayden's little brother Corey-Jae born 01.05.2007 weighing 7lbs 1oz
Big hugs and kisses to you my darling Kayden for watching over his safe arival.
We have shared our tears and our sorrow, We have given encouragement to each other, Given hope for a brighter tomorrow, We share the title of grieving mother.
Some of us lost older daughters or sons, Who we watched grow over the years, Some have lost their babies before their lives begun, But no matter the age , we cry the same tears.
We understand each others pain, The bond we share is very strong, With each other there is no need to explain, The path we walk is hard and long.
Our children brought us together, They didn't want us on this journey alone, They knew we needed each other, To survive the pain of them being gone.
So take my hand my friend, We may stumble and fall along the way, But we'll get up and try again, Because together we can make it day by day.
We can give each other hope, We'll create a place where we belong, Together we will find ways to cope, Because we are Angel Mums and together we are strong!
Judi Walker (Shane's Mom) Copyright Dec. 28, 1999 Dedicated to all mums who have lost a child.
You are my first thought when I awake and my last thought before I sleep . You're in my dreams and I feel your spirit beside me every moment of the day.
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'You are in the arms of Jesus now, and I know that you'll be fine, But how I wish with all my heart, that those arms could be mine'
For all those months I held you close deep inside of me. I planned your life and dreamed about the child you'd grow to be The days went by. I felt you move. I chose a name for you. I bought you clothes and fixed your room it all looked bright and new. Then all went wrong. The birth was bad. And you just couldn't live. You left me there with empty arms. And all this love to give. I had one chance to hold you, to say goodbye to what we shared. Somehow I felt you would know how much I really cared. For I had grown to know you when you lived inside of me. And I will always love you. Though your life will never be. - Author Unknown -
A Child that loses a parent is an orphan, A Man who loses his wife is a widower, A Woman who loses her husband is a widow, There is no name for a parent that loses a child, For there are no word to describe the pain.
Welcome to the club where no-one wants to be for we all have angels in heaven flying free and I would just give anything to have them here with you and me.
We all feel each others greif and we feel each others pain we all know the day are angels grew wings we would never be the same
Our angels our all playing in heaven up above but we will always show them our forever love our broken hearts will never fully mend and each and every day our love to our beautiful angels we send
Welcome to our club but i wish that you wernt here but we will all give you a hug and a listening ear no matter what the time no matter what the day we are all here for each other to give a hug your way
We all carry on with our angels by our side they left footprints on our hearts we can never hide we all understand what sorrow you are going through for we all belong to the club no-one wants to belong to.
Kayden's Stone in the SANDS memorial garden Lichfield.
"Gone Too Soon" (Sung by Micheal Jackson)
Like A Comet Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly And Splendidly Bright Here One Day Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight On A Cloudy Afternoon Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle Built Upon A Sandy Beach Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower That Is Just Beyond Your Reach Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight Here One Day Gone One Night
Like A Sunset Dying With The Rising Of The Moon Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon
Of blessings You've given me, Lord, I thank You each day as I kneel and adore. Such pain as there is in this earthly life; Heartaches, sorrow and , O Lord, the strife. These blur my vision of Your kingdom above And make me doubt that I've ever known love. It's hard to imagine the plan of Your Hands When life has me trapped by its many demands. I worry and fret, I'm plagued by concern To the point I don't know which way to turn. What is the reason, why am I here? What am I to be, for those I hold dear? Will the pain go away if I just understand? Speak to me, Lord! I'll do all I can. Guide me when I lose Your way, Guard my tongue in all I say; Speak to me, Lord! I need much more So I don't lose Your way, I humbly implore. And while I'm so bold, each one of the needs Of family and friends, grant them, Lord, please!
Touched by Angels
We are touched by angels And walk where angels tread, They will guide us, walk beside us through the days ahead. In the hours of darkness, When our dreams have flown, They bring hope and gentle healing, we are not alone. In our times of doubting, Still they understand, And forever touched by angels, We walk hand in hand.
I Thought Of You
I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and the day before that, too. I think of you in silence, I often say your name, But all I have is memories and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake, with which I'll never part. God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart. I shed tears for what might have been, a million times I've cried. If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still, In my heart you hold a place no one could ever fill. It broke my heart to lose you, but you didn't go alone, For part of me went with you, the day God took you home.
author unknown
A Father's Grief
It must be very difficult To be a man in grief, Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong" No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult To stand up to the test And field calls and visitors So she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's all right And what she's going through, But seldom take his hand and ask, "My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night And thinks his heart will break. He dries her tears and comforts her, But "stays strong" for her sake.
It must be very difficult To start each day anew And try to be so very brave-- He lost his baby too.
Mommy, When I Went To Heaven~ Mommy, when I went to heaven, I took part of your heart. Just so you will always remember me, And know we will never be apart.
Mommy, when I went to heaven, I was not alone. They were waiting there for me, The day the Lord took me home.
Mommy, when I went to heaven, I seen you crying down below. I tried to touch you, And let you know I love you so.
Mommy, when I went to heaven, I know you didn't want me to go. So the Lord let's me come back once & awhile, I kiss you just to let you know.
Mommy, when I went to heaven, They promised you would feel my touch. I am here for you, mommy, I miss & love you so much....
~ Author Unknown ~
If Roses Grow In Heaven
If roses grow in heaven Lord,please pick a bunch for me Place them in my sons arms And tell him they're from me
Tell him that i love him, And when he turns to smile Place a kiss upon his cheek And hold him for a while.
Because remembering him is everything I do it everyday For there is an aching in my heart that will never go away.
A Gift An Angel was sent from Heaven above A special one that would bring much love God knew that this precious life would be short So he looked around for a tender heart.
He made his choice and the gift was sent In what seemed like a moment, the angel went Leaving treasured memories and a heart full of pain A void, an abyss, tears flowed like rain But.........
Wait a moment, I wish you could see The wonderful thing thats happened to me Jesus was waiting, His arms opened wide And he and his angels brought me inside Such a beautiful place I cannot describe A new home from the moment I died.
I'll wait here for you, so dry up your tears And go bravely on with your life free from fears Know that Gods near you to help and to guide He'll never desert you, he's there by your side So speak to him daily from inside your heart And let him assure you, we're never apart.
My Dad is a Survivor
My dad is a survivor too which is no surprise to me. He's always been like a lighthouse that helps you cross a stormy sea.
But, I walk with my dad each day to lift him when he's down. I wipe the tears he hides from others; He cries when no one's around.
I watch him sit up late at night with my picture in his hand. He cries as he tries to grieve alone, and wishes he could understand.
My dad is like a tower of strength. He's the greatest of them all! But, there are times when he needs to cry... Please be there when he falls.
Hold his hand or pat his shoulder... And tell him it's okay. Be his strength when he's sad, Help him mourn in his own way.
Now, as I watch over my precious dad from the Heavens up above... I'm so proud that he's a survivor... And, I can still feel his love.
What is a Dad?
God took the strength of a mountain, The majesty of a tree, The warmth of a summer sun, The calm of a quiet sea,
The generous soul of nature, The comforting arm of night, The wisdom of the ages, The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring, The faith of a mustard seed, The patience of eternity, The depth of a family need,
Then God combined these qualities, When there was nothing more to add, He knew His masterpiece was complete, And so, He called it ... Dad
Author is unknown
The Cord
We are connected, My daughter and I, by An invisible cord Not seen by the eye. It's not like the cord That connects us 'til birth This cord can't be seen By any on earth. This cord does it's work Right from the start. It binds us together Attached to my heart. I know it's there, Tho no one can see This invisible cord From my daughter to me. The strength of this cord Is hard to describe It can't be destroyed, It can't be denied. It's stronger than any cord One could create It withstands the test Can hold any weight. And though you're gone Though you're not here with me, The cord is still there Though no one can see. It pulls at my heart, I am bruised...I am sore, But this cord is my lifeline As never before. I am thankful that God Connects us this way A mother and child Death can't take it away! - Unknown
A Lament for My Baby
I never got to hear you laugh you never saw me cry didnt get a chance to say "Hello" you never said "Goodbye" I didn't think that I could feel so sad, lost and forlorn. I never knew God chose his Angels before some of them were born. Your life was short yet special I shared it all exclusively I felt you breathe, I felt you kick. You were alive inside of me. Every baby is an Angel and every angel is divine God needed one in heaven He came down and took mine And although we are not together we're not really apart for you'll always occupy a space deep within my heart. Time has begun to ease my pain It's only some days now I cry. When I wish I could have said "Hello" and heard you say "Goodbye" ~Author Unknown
Kayden Kayden its a lovely day,
Kayden Kayden are you coming out to play,
Go and put your nappy on
Tell God you won't be long,
Cause.......
Mommy is waiting round the
corner.
My Mummy My Mum is a survivor, or so I've heard it said. But I hear her crying at night when all others are in bed. I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand. She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand. But like the sands on the beach that never wash away... I watch over my surviving Mum, who thinks of me each day. She wears a smile for others...a smile of disguise. But through Heaven's door I see tears flowing from her eyes. My Mum tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive. But anyone who knows her knows it is her way to survive. As I watch over my surviving Mum...through Heaven's open door, I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more. But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears. So if you get a chance, go visit her...And show her that you care. For no matter what she says...no matter what she feels. My surviving Mum has a broken heart that time won't ever heal
Although you cannot see me Know that I am near You will always be my Mummy Though my body is not here My heart is wrapped around you As yours is too with mine For the love we have between us Will not be lost in time.
A N G E L UNAWARE
Oh the longing we both had to be a mommy and a dad We put our hopes and dreams in you He hoped for pink, I dreamed of blue But for you God had a different plan One we may never understand
We were visited by an angel Though we didn't know it then You were the answer to our prayer Our Angel Unaware
We barely got to say hello Before we had to let you go God breathed your name and called you home So briefy here, so quickly gone But in the stillness of the night My empty arms still hold you tight
We were visited by an angel Though we didn't know it then You were the answer to our prayer Our Angel Unaware
A Face In The Clouds
I looked towards the clouds today and for a moment saw your face And wondered just where you have gone with a hope it's a better place
Did you show yourself to me today to tell me you're alright? Or was it just a daydream playing tricks upon my sight
Then I thought of when you left you did not say a word We never said "goodbye" but in our hearts, your good-bye was heard
You have changed our lives forever Your time here not in vain and hope you know we always wanted to keep you safe from pain
We will always feel the void inside because you are not here But each new thought you send our way lets us know you're always near
So until our journey nears it's end And we hear the angels sing We'll face each new day as it comes and live off the love you bring ~Author Unknown~
AN ANGEL NEVER DIES
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start
Although my body cant hold.
It doesn’t mean I am gone,
This world was worthy, not, of me,
God chose that I move on
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face,
You have my word, I’ll fill you arms,
Someday we will embrace,
You’ll hear that it was “meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes”,
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache,
I’m watching over all you ,
Another child you’ll bear,
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there
There’ll come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips,
And then you’ll understand
Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes,
That doesn’t mean I never “was”
An angel never dies….
~Unknown Author~
What is a Grandma?
She takes you in her arms snuggles you in lets you do the things That mummy and daddy say NO to or does she ? This one holds you in her heart can only tell your photo how much YOU are loved kisses it goodnight and good morning So What is a grandma ? How can I be one if you are not here with me Oh but you are ! Always You live inside my soul My love keeps you safe Until we meet again One Day Some Day So what is a Grandma
I AM .............. xxxxxxxxxxx
Am I a Mummy?
Can you be a mother if you don’t have a baby ? Am I a mummy – I don’t know, maybe ? I know I wasn’t “right” for most of last year My stomach grew til it stuck right out here ! My feet and my ankles swelled like balloons I must have looked like some kind of cartoon ! We bought all those things – bottles and bibs, Babygros, bath, carseat and cribs, Dummies and hats, scratch mitts and toys, Beige everywhere for a girl or a boy, Bedding, a snowsuit, wipes and milk too A room “stuffed with stuff” – all waiting for you Four weeks to go, people ask “are you scared?” “Is the nursery ready - is everything prepared ?” Others who have got pregnant since you Ask your advice on the things they should do All’s going smoothly and you gaze at scan pics Then there’s that strange sensation – when you stop feeling kicks Afterwards you try desperately to remember, to know The exact moment it happened, when they had to “go” There’s that awful scan, and the “too-quiet” tone Then the midwife’s gone, and you’re left alone You go in the Maternity Unit just the same Give birth like everyone – the pushing, the pain But its right about then that things fall apart You leave hospital with no baby, just a broken heart Maybe like us you’re shown out the back way Like that helps you forget what happened that day You arrive back home like you’ve just had an op You had a “condition” and now it has stopped Like an in-growing toenail or a kidney stone You have it removed and you’re packed back off home Someone shuts the nursery door The stuff looks ridiculous – what’d you buy all that for ? And so you sit there with nothing to do Flowers and cards start arriving round you You go through the funeral because you have to It’s not like it’s something you ever wanted to do Information on christenings, registrars and more That you had sent for not three weeks before, Lies pointless and useless on the dining room table You’ll sort it all out, when you are able In the days after the funeral, when it finally sinks in It’s no joke or trick – there’s no way you can win Your baby is dead, it’s over, the end “You can start again now” says some well-meaning friend It’s like taking part in a 100 metre dash You cross the line & you’re a winner – a medal, a sash But if you don’t finish, you’re just an “also-ran” “You’ll be fine next time” says some nice doctor man Pass the finish line and you’re officially a mother With a living baby as prize, just like all the others Don’t finish the race and no-one knows what to say All they talk about is running one again another day No-one says the “M” word or applies it to you Like you haven’t quite earned the right for it to You don’t have a baby – you failed at the last post So you’re not a mother – and what hurts the most ? Losing your baby because Fate throws a turn Or losing the recognition you still should have earned ? Those people who got pregnant after you Are now “overtaking” and there’s nothing you can do They’re having their babies and it all seems so easy Some even smaller than yours – you think “how can that be ?” That their babies survive and somehow yours don’t You want to say congratulations – but part of you won’t They display all the celebration cards they’ve been sent Saying how lovely that they are now proud parents “So are we” you shout “I had a baby – its the truth !” So where is it now – where’s your actual proof ? Are you changing, bathing, feeding alright ? Are you being kept awake with the crying at night ? Can you show grandparents & friends more than a photograph ? Can we hear your baby gurgle and giggle and laugh ? Are you doing these jobs that society defines as a mother ? “Well no” you reply - but there are other Ways I try to keep my baby alive With photos and poems their memory thrives Dedications and posts on the SANDS website Always telling them hello and goodnight And I know I only ever kiss a plaque On a box of ashes that can’t kiss me back But I do try and be a good mummy in name “That’s lovely” they say, “but it’s not quite the same….” “It’ll all work out next time” they say “You’ll get a “proper” baby – be a real mummy that day…” So my question to the world, if I don’t have a baby Is am I a mummy – yes, no, maybe ?? You see I think the title is earned with love Whether down on earth or sleeping above And I beg to argue that us angel mothers Love our children unlike any others We don’t have all the new baby celebration But we never lose our temper or cry in frustration We think of them every minute, every day We don’t give them to someone so we get a break Our love and devotion is magnified tenfold Just because we don’t have a baby to hold So I am going to say I’m a mother with pride My baby was beautiful, I’ve nothing to hide I’m sure I’ll have an “earth” baby one day But I’m the mother of an angel baby today So ask me now if I’m a mother and I’ll tell you for sure I’m a true mummy now – and forever more
"Love and miss you my precious Angels."
I Hurt
I said, God I hurt And God said, I know
I said, I cry a lot And God said, that's why I gave you tears
I said, life is so hard And God said, that's why I gave you loved ones
I said, but my loved one died! And God said, so did mine!
I said, it's such a great loss! And God said, I saw mine nailed to a cross!
I said, but your loved one lives! And God said, so does yours!
I said, where is he now? And God said, my son is by my side And yours is in my arms.
Don't think of him as gone away His journey's just begun Life holds so many facets Earth is only one
Just think of him as resting From the sorrows and the tears In a place of warmth and comfort Where there are no days and years
Think how he must be wishing That he could know today How nothing but our sadness Can really pass away
And think of him as living In the hearts of those he touched For nothing loved is ever lost And he was loved so much
By Ellen Brenneman
My silent child Our precious baby Close to my heart I'll keep you with me
An important job God has for you There's love to give And work to do
He needs an angel Strong but small To shine light on many And give love to all
Before you go I give you this All my heart And one last kiss
Daddy please don’t look so sad Mummy don’t you cry I am in the arms of Jesus And he sings me lullabies You see I am a special child I'm needed up above For I am the special gift you gave God A product of your love I’ll always be with you So watch the sky at night Find the brightest star that's gleaming That's my halo brilliant light You'll see me in the morning frost The mist upon your window pane When you feel a little breeze From a gentle wind that blows That's me-for I'll be there A kiss upon your nose When you see a child playing And your heart feels a little tug That's me you see I'll be there giving your heart a hug So daddy please don't look so sad Mummy don't you cry I am in the arms of Jesus and he sings me Lullabies Heavenly Father So full of love and grace Bless my son's cute little face Bless his hair and that little curl He's the cutest in the world Bless his hands that are so small Bless the way that he plays ball Bless his feet that like to run And bless the way that he has fun Bless his kisses that are so sweet Just bless my son from his head to his feet.
A Mother I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother And I know I heard him say. A Mother has a baby This we know is true.' But God, can you be a Mother When your baby's not with you? Yes, you can, He replied With confidence in His voice I give many women babies When they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime And others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb But there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this, God I want my baby here He took a breath and cleared His throat And then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you What your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile With other children and say: "We go to earth to learn our lessons Of love and life and fear. My Mummy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mom Who had so much love for me I learned my lesson very quickly My Mummy set me free. I miss my Mummy oh so much But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep On her pillow's where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek And whisper in her ear. "Mummy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here." So you see my dear sweet one Your children are ok Your babies are here in My home And this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with Me Until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home They'll be at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a Mother It's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of Right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize You are a Mother until their time is done. They'll be up here with Me one day And you know you're the best one!
Hi Daddy Hi Daddy, its me,
Your baby boy in the sky.
Won't you tell me Daddy, Why does my mommy cry?
Doesnt she know I'm happy here,
Heaven's a beautiful place Oh, how it hurts me, Daddy
To see tears streaming down Mommy's face.
Daddy, tell her I'm much better here,
Jesus fixed my heart. But when I see mommy crying, It just about tears it apart.
I know it hurt you both, Daddy, When Jesus took me away.
But you and mommy remember, We'll be together again someday.
I can't wait to hug you, I never got the chance before. When its time for you to come, I'll be waiting at heavens door.
Then you'll both understand, Jesus knew where I needed to be.
What a marvelous place to live, Just wait and you both shall see.
Please let my Mommy know, Daddy,
That I heard every word she said. And I remember her softly kissing me As I lay cuddled in her arms.
Just one more thing Daddy, Before I have to go, I love you both very much And just wanted you to know.
Silent Footprints
We never had the chance to play, to laugh, to rock, to wiggle. We long to hold you, touch you now, and listen to you giggle.
I’ll always be you mummy, he’ll always be your dad. You’ll always be our son, the child we never had.
My Dearest Family, Some things I'd like to say but first of all to let you know that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from Heaven where I dwell with God above where there's no more tears or sadness, there is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight, remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on Earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said "I welcome you." It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone, as for your dearest family they'll be here later on. Then God gave me a list of things He wished for me to do, and foremost on that list of mine is to watch and care for you. and I will be beside you every day and week and year, and when you're sad, I'm standing there to wipe away the tear. And when you lie in bed at night, the days chores put to flight, God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night. when you think of my life on Earth and all those loving years, Because you're only human they are bound to bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain, but remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain. I wish that I could tell you of all that God has planned, but if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand. but one thing is for certain, though my life on Earth is o'er. I am closer to you now than I ever was before. And to my very many friends, trust God knows what is best. I'm still not far away from you, I'm just beyond the crest. When you are walking down the street and you've got me on your mind, I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind. And when you feel the gentle breeze or the wind upon your face, that's me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace. And when it's time for you to go from that body to be free, remember you're not going, you are coming here to me, And I will always love you from that land way up above. Will be in touch again soon. P.S. God sends His Love
Our Son Now you’re gone… yet you’re here, we’ll sense you everywhere. You are our sorrow and our joy, there’s love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong, we’ll forget you never. The son we had, but never had, and yet will have forever.
An Angel Blessing
the other day i looked above and saw an angel near i asked a favour for someone i love and hoped my message was clear
please angel let my mother see shes loved so very much and angel will you promise me to let her feel your touch
the angel spoke and moved my way thats when its feather fell !!!! "this gift is yours to give her this day it proves my promise well"
Briefly
He came for only a brief moment, and drifted away. A brief flash in time, He was not meant to stay. Like a falling star, to be seen at a glimpse and then to disappear, A small miracle not meant to be, A life to go unlived Yet his existence has altered all of me. He came into my heart, Taking with him the dreams and hopes of tomorrow, Taking away that special part of my soul. He is always with me, Always loved and forever missed. Like a beautiful sunrise eclipsed by the clouds. He has made me who I am this very day. My life is what is left Since he was taken away.
Mummy To An Angel
In the starry night I see you, In the gentle breeze I feel you, On this earth YOU carry ME, You are all I dream you to be.
You were chosen to be special, I am Mummy to an Angel.
You are my warmth on a winters day, You lift me up, take my tears away, Although you couldn’t stay with me, You’re all I ever dreamt you to be.
You were chosen to be special, I am Mummy to an Angel.
I am the proudest Mummy alive, To ALWAYS have you by my side, My love’s on show for all to see, You are all I dream you to be.
You were chosen to be special, I am Mummy to an Angel.
I Am A Mother
I’ve loved my child right from the start A feeling that’s filled my entire heart I went through the labour and suffered the pain For many long hours with nothing to gain I’ve spent sleepless nights being awake Though it’s been a while my arms they still ache I’ve sat and I’ve wondered of how he would grow The love of my family that he’d come to know The sound of his voice as he learns to talk Watching his steps as he tries to walk I have a child that I really love so I am his mother yet nobody knows I spent all those months feeling him grow I’ve lived through it all and have nothing to show I don’t get invited to chat with young mothers Because I don’t have a baby like all of the others I’ve got some stretch marks that I’d like to hide But I don’t have a pram with a baby inside The people I’ve known for so many years They now avoid me, which adds to my tears I don’t know how long I’ll be feeling like this But one thing I know my baby I miss When Mothers Day comes it will be very hard I won’t have any flowers – not even a card And just because he’s not here with me I still have a son I wish I could see But one thing I know and this is for sure I’ll be his mother for evermore ~Author Unknown~
My Dream
I carried you so lovingly, within my gentle womb... and little did I realize, your life would end too soon.
I never got the chance to say "I love you, little one"... before I held you in my arms, your life on earth was done.
The grief is indescribable, to lose a child this way... all the many hopes and dreams, just vanished on that day.
I know I'll see the sun shine bright upon my baby's face... when I finally get to heaven, all my pain will be erased.
We'll soar the skies together, as angels two by two... we'll have a sweet reunion; a mother's dream come true.
Pennies from Heaven
I found a penny today Just laying on the ground, But it's not just a penny This little coin I've found.
Found pennies come from heaven That's what my Grandpa told me, He said Angels toss them down Oh, how I loved that story.
He said when an Angel misses you They toss a penny down, Sometimes just to cheer you up To make a smile out of your frown.
So don't pass by that penny When you're feeling blue, It may be a penny from heaven That an Angel's tossed to you.
- (c) 1998 Charles Mashburn -
My Son the most precious moment in my life and the greatest joy ive ever know, was having such a special son who i could call my own. each day i think about you youre there in every happy thought, every moment shared was special though your time with me was short. the saddest part of leaving was not the tears i cry, but the empyiness inside my heart that can never say goodbye
my
precious, tiny little one, You will always be to me So Perfect, pure and innocent Just as you were meant to be:
We dreamed of you and your life And all that would be, We waited and longed for you to come And join our family
We never had the chance to play, To laugh, to rock, to wiggle We long to hold you, touch you now And listen to your giggle,
I'll always be your Mum, He'll always be your Dad, You will always be our child, The child that we had,
But now you're gone... We'll sense you everywhere: You are our sorrow and our joy There's love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong. We'll forget you never. The child we had, but never had And yet will have forever.
~ Author Unknown ~
Husbands Must Grieve Too (The death of a baby)
When death visits a family, everyone tells the husband to be strong, he must find the strength to carry, himself and his wife along. Some people tend to forget that the husband is grieving too. He also needs someone to carry him through.
The death is so much harder to take when it is a wee one, it is like an arrow in your heart and you brain has come undone. You feel that you need to put on a brave face to support your wife, but how can do this, when death has taken your sons life.
If you feel like crying, please do not feel any shame, any man who has lost a family member would do the same. The baby was part of your life for a while and then he was taken, and this has left the both of you very shaken.
Do not bottle up your feelings because this will cause you more pain. You must let it out or it will drive you insane. Grieving is a process and it has to run its' course, even if you are screaming and crying yourself hoarse.
Be there for each other both wife and man, and talk over your feelings the best way you can. Cry in each others arms until the pain starts to ease, and remember you baby boy at times like these.
Jim William McVean
My Angel Once I held an Angel so very close to me. I watched him run, and jump, and dance, but only in my memory. I waited for the day he'd come, he'd bring such joy to all. Then the Angel was called home, he never had to fall. He was to perfect for this world, he didn't need to stay. He went straight up to heaven, I'll join him there someday.
You don't know how I feel- Please don't tell me that you do. There's just one way to know -- have you lost a child too? "You'll have another child!" -- must I hear this each day? Can I get another mother, too, if mine should pass away?
Don't say it was "God's will" -- That's not the God I know. Would God on purpose break my heart, Then watch as my tears flow? "Aren't you better yet?" Is that what I heard you say? NO! A part of my heart aches -- I'll always feel some pain. You think that silence is kind, But it hurts me even more. I want to talk about my child Who has gone through death's door.
Don't say these things to me, Although you do mean well. They do not take the pain away; I must go through this hell. I will get better slow but sure -- And it helps to have your near. But a simple "I'm sorry you lost your child" Is all I need to hear.
A million times I needed you A million times I have cried. If love alone could have saved you, You would have never died. In life I loved you dearly, In death I love you still. In my heart you hold a special place, That none will ever fill. It broke my heart to lose you, But you did not go alone. For all my love went with you The day God called you home. ~Author Unknown~
These are my footprints, so perfect and so small. These tiny footprints, Never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint, for now I have my wings. These tiny footprints were meant, for other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints, in the patter of the rain. Gentle drops like angel's tears, of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints, in each butterflies' lazy dance. I'll let you know I'm with you, if you just give me a chance.
You will see my tiny footprints, in the rustle of the leaves. I will whisper names into the wind, and call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints, are found on mommy's heart. 'Cause even though I'm gone now, we’ll NEVER truly part.
13th 2006
The angel of April is the spirit of rebirth. As the days grow longer and the sun begins to warm us, April is a time for new life and new beginnings. April's angel spurs us to test ourselves in new directions and to make ourselves vulnerable in the face of unfamiliar people, situations and places. Encouraged by the April angel, we search for new and novel endeavors that will enrich our lives and bring new meaning to our career or family roles. The April angel teaches us to delight in each sign of awakening, in nature and within ourselves
My grandson he is an Angel now And with the other Angels plays He swings from clouds and sings to me To brighten up my day He knowss how much I miss him And he wants me to be proud That he's doing fine and having fun Swinging from a cloud.
Lots of love and kisses from nanna jane + aunty Rhiann. xxxx
An Angel Is ... A Parent Our first image of an angel may well have been Mom or Dad ... the one who came to our rescue and reassured us in the dark of the night. For the child in all of us, a parent is the angel we seek to guide and protect us and uplift our spirits when the going gets tough. Parents need not be angelic or saintly to fulfill this roll! All that is needed is unconditional love, a willingness to listen, and a smile or hug when we need encouragement. This is how we learn to be angels for our own children as well.
When God had finished making earth and heaven And filling them with wonders great and small, He saw how special gladness could be given And so began His greatest work of all.
He took the sparkle of the dew at dawning To make two shining eyes, so bright and clear; He plucked a velvet rose that sun-drenched morning And made a baby mouth, so soft and dear.
For downy hair, He chose the silk that lingers On summer flowers whose seeding time has come; And for those dainty little toes and fingers, The petals of a sweet chrysanthemum.
He took the magic of a rainbow's splendor, The softness of a summer cloud on high, The innocence of spring, so fresh ... so tender, The frailty of a gentle butterfly.
The happy sounds of laughter and of singing, He borrowed from the jolly, tumbling brook; Then turning to some bluebells sweetly ringing, Their loveliness and cheeriness He took.
And to this masterpiece so long awaited, He added then the love from His own heart; And thus it was a baby He created ... God's greatest and most precious work of art.
~ Author Unknown ~
May you always have an Angel by your side,
Watching out for you in all the things you do;
Reminding you to keep believing in brighter days,
Finding ways for your wishes and dreams to come true;
Giving you hope that is as certain as the sun,
Giving you the strength of serenity as your guide,
May you always have love and comfort and courage.
May you always have an Angel by your side.
May you always have an Angel by your side,
Someone there to catch you if you fall;
Encouraging your dreams,
Inspiring your happiness,
Holding your hand and helping you through it all.
In all of our days, our lives are always changing;
Tears come along as well as smiles.
Along the roads you travel,
May the miles be a thousand times more lovely than lonely;
May they give you gifts that never, ever end;
Someone wonderful to love
And a dear friend in whom you can confide.
May you have rainbows after every storm,
May you have hopes to keep you safe and warm,
And may you always have an Angel by your side.
All heaven was in mourning, The day that young man died; When He closed His eyes, they said, Ten thousand angels cried.
The angels shed their many tears, Because He was God's Son; But there is a special sadness, When God takes the very young.
At times like that, I question God, Why let a child die? I cannot understand it, And I need to ask Him why.
I, too, have heard the angels cry, I've heard them cry first hand; For I, too, gave up a child, And I've tried hard to understand.
Yes, I received God's comfort, Though I'm grateful, I want more; I want reasons; I want meaning, I am a parent who's heart-sore.
God can give, and God can take, I am well aware of this; But, why my baby ... why my child? Why did God put him on His list?
Did I love my child too much? Was he too good for this old earth? Had his purpose here been filled? Was that why he was taken first?
I awake each day with questions, I fall asleep at night, the same; So many times I ask God why, I'm both saddened and ashamed.
But then, in reflective moments, When my prayers are most intense, One word keeps going through my mind, Patience ... patience ... patience.
Maybe now is not the time, To explain this great heartache; Even if I knew God's reasons, What difference would it make?
Can't I just be grateful, For any time we had? Accept God's action without question? Why is that so very bad?
What's my hurry ... why my pressure? Is my faith not strong enough? God will explain it when He's ready, Surely I can trust that much.
God understands my broken heart, He, too, gave up a Son; He knows the pain of one lost child, He weeps with me, and we are one.
Just as I talk to God each day, I talk to my precious child; I blow him kisses, and I say, "See you, honey, in a while."
~ Virginia Ellis ~
When Jesus lived upon the earth So many years ago, He called the children close to Him Because He loved them so. And with that tenderness of old, That same sweet, gentle way, He holds your little loved one close Within His arms today.
And you'll find comfort in your faith That in His home above, The God of little children Gives your little one His love. So think of your little darling Lighthearted and happy and free Playing in God's promised land Where there is joy eternally.
~ Helen Steiner Rice ~
To my
The Master Gardener From heaven above Planted a seed In the garden of love. And from it there grew A rosebud small That never had time To open at all. For God in His perfect And all-wise way Chose this rose For His heavenly bouquet. And great was the joy Of this tiny rose To be the one our Father Chose to leave earth's garden For one on high Where roses bloom always And never die. So while you can't see Your precious rose bloom, You know the great Gardener From the upper room Is watching and tending This wee rose with care, Tenderly touching Each petal so fair. So think of your darling With the angels above, Secure and contented And surrounded by love. And remember God blessed And enriched your lives, too, For in dying, your darling Brought heaven closer to you!
~ Helen Steiner Rice ~
A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam, And for a brief moment its glory and beauty belong to our world. But then it flies on again, and though we wish it could have stayed, we feel lucky to have seen it.
Author Unknown
Angel Babies.
Over the rainbow, way up high, past fluffy white clouds the angel babies fly. With the sun's golden rays shining bright overhead, tumble and bumble they bounce out of bed. Good morning, sun! The day has begun! With delicate wings and sweet little faces, they dance and they play and they race flying races. Then, swooping and looping down through a cloud, or sliding and riding and singing out loud, wiggle and giggle some fast and some slow, the angel babies fly to the earth down below. Not everyone knows this, but truly it's true -- little angel babies have big jobs to do! In gardens and meadows, they coax forth the flowers with sunlight and love and gentle rain showers. In fields and forests they spread soft white wings, sharing kindness and joy with all living things. Small animal babies in quiet green places rejoice in warm smiles from sweet angel faces. In backyards and baskets, on fireside rugs, small creatures are cuddles in soft angel hugs. Soon evening is bright with red-orange light, and day slowly fades to make way for the night. As good little children curl up in their beds, the angels bring sweet dreams to young sleepyheads. Then the sound of a horn only angels can hear calls out to them all -- here and there, far and near. It beckons them back from wherever they roam: Work is done for the day! Now it's time to go home. Blinking and winking, bright stars in the sky twinkle and shine as the angels fly by -- so softly singing a sweet lullaby. Yawning and stretching, they climb in their beds. Cloud blankets warm bodies, cloud pillows rest heads. Snuggled in tight with the moon shining bright sleep tight, sweet dreams, good night. Good night, angel babies. Good Night.
To my dearest family ... There's some things I'd like to say, But first of all, to let you know That I have arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above, Where there's no more tears of sadness ... There is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy Just because I'm out of sight; Remember that I am with you Every morning, noon and night. The day I had to leave you When my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me And said, "I welcome you!"
"It's good to have you back again, You were missed while you were gone; As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on."
"I need you here badly, As you're part of my plan; There's so much that we have to do, To help our mortal man." God gave me a list of things That he wished for me to do; And foremost on the list Was to watch and care for you.
When you lie in bed at night, With the day's chores put to flight, God and I are closest to you ... In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth And all those loving years, Because you are only human, They are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry, It does help to relieve pain; Remember there would be no flowers Unless there was some rain. I wish that I could tell you All that God has planned; But if I were to tell you, You really wouldn't understand.
There is one thing is for certain, Although my life on earth is o'er, I'm closer to you now, Than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you And many hills to climb; But together we can do it By just taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy And I'd like it be for you too, That as you give unto the world, The world will give back to you.
If you can ever help somebody Who's in sorrow and pain, Then you can say to God at night ... "My day was not in vain."
For now I am contented, That my life was worthwhile; Knowing as I passed along the way, I was able to make somebody smile. So if you meet somebody Who is sad and feeling low ... Just lend a hand to pick him up, As on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street And you've got me on your mind; I'm walking in your footsteps Only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go From that body to be free, Remember that you're not going ... You're coming here to me.
It's hard to know what to say When one so young is taken away Far too soon he had to part His memory engraved in everyones hearts
I never held or kissed you I never saw your smile or heard you laugh nor did I hear you cry. In my heart I hold you and when I look into your eyes I see the light of Angels, Splendor and Suprise.
I thank you for your visit and the knowledge of your grace. I thank you for the light of God which shines upon your face. You do not know the sorrow nor do you know the pain, But the fact you were here is everybody's gain
Goodnight, God Bless So much love Josie xxx
She clings to the hand of God To keep from going wild And in His presence Comes to know His other hand . . .
Holds Her Child
Grieving Mother
by Thais F. Henry
Dear Mr Postman,can you send a letter from me,I need it sent from up above to my earthly familyPlease send it quick, my mummy's sad, I hate to see her cry. Every night she prays to God and sadly asks him why. Please let it say, I could not stay, with an Angel I had to go I'm fine, I'm happyhere with the other babies I know I hope it reads to Daddy, I know you love me too I miss you lots and all the things that we had planned to do. Grandma, how I'll miss your hugs and kisses planned for me I know how much you'll miss the growing child that I should be Close it with, I love you so, I'm with you in your heart I never really left you see, I was an angel from the start.
Father's Day Poem
oh dearest daddy.... what can I say today To mend your broken heart.... On this fathers day
You know I would be there with you.... if only there was a way.... Although l am in heaven now.... It's in your heart I will always stay.
Just like you were always there for me.. I will be always there for you.... Just look for a sign and you will see.... in each sunrise.... and each sunset too.
My love for you daddy ...... Will always be true.... You are the best daddy in the world.... And that includes the heavens too.
So I'm sending all my love.... To you from heaven ....... And remember I will be with you.... Just look for me this fathers day.
I love you daddy! From your angel in heaven above.
The little one we long for Was swiftly here and gone. But the love that was then planted Is a light that still shines on. And though our arms are empty, Our hearts know what to do. Every beating of our hearts Says that we love you. - Author Unknown
Forget Me Not
Forget me not, for I am there In the beat of your heart, On the wing of your prayer.
Forgive me my parting and leaving you thus, A joyous reunion is waiting for us!
Continue to strive toward your goal and be brave. Know that my love didn't stop at the grave.
My spirit is with you through good times and bad. I share all the joys and the sorrows you've had.
Feel my presence within your next breath And realize there's no distance in death.
Ask for my help and I'll answer your call. Reach for my hand when you stumble and fall.
Run the last mile with a smile on your face. My arms will be waiting when you finish the race.
Always remember, my love is right there In the beat of your heart, On the wing of your prayer.
My sweet, precious angel sent from above. You've come to watch over and show me love. My frowns you have turned into smiles. Through a period of time and over many miles. Right from the start you touched my heart. My dearest angel we shall never part. The sparkle in your eye like the stars in the sky. You make me feel safe and now I know why. God in Heaven has sent you to me. To watch over and show me once again how to be happy. My sweet angel I love and appreciate you. I have prayed to God and Thanked him too. For sending me someone so special and true. To help mend my heart and see me through.
Follow Your Dream Before you look for things to change... look deep inside your soul. The Lord has given you all the clues... always follow your dream. Inviting trouble is so easy to do... it happens without warning. Avoiding problems is easier said than done... always follow your dream.
Sometimes things just turn out bad... and you don't know where to turn. The answer is as close as your heart... always follow your dream. Hope has always been the key... it's sometimes our only hope. When things are darkest and looking bleak... always follow your dream.
Little Snowdrop The world may never notice If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom, Or even pause to wonder If the petals fall too soon. But every life that ever forms, Or ever comes to be, Touches the world in some small way For all eternity.
Our love for you is not written on paper, for paper can be erased. Nor is our love for you etched in stone, for stone can be broken. But our love for you is inscribed in our hearts, where it shall remain forever. - Author Unknown -
Thank you for the gift of you! You gave us hope by just being you. After all the hurting and healing is through We'll treasure most of all the gift of you!
Anon
Death leaves a heartache, That no one can heal... Love leaves a memory, That no one can steal....
Fluff up the clouds
Call heaven there's an Angel That's coming home today. Our hearts are sad and broken Because he couldn't stay.
Fluff up the clouds and lay him Gently in your care. Place the tiny halo Softly in his hair.
Our arms will never hold him again Our lips will never kiss The velvet of his cheeks again We were not prepared for this.
In our hearts will be a tiny hole Where always you will be. Because we loved you so much Our hearts will always grieve.
Unknown Author
Hugs From Heaven
When you feel a gentle breeze caress you when you sigh, It's a hug sent from Heaven from a loved one way up high.
If a soft and tender raindrop lands upon your nose, It's just a little angel's kiss as fragile as a rose.
When you hear a song that fills you with a feeling of sweet love, It's a hug sent down from Heaven from someone special up above.
If you wake up in the morning to a bluebird's chirping song, It's music sent from Heaven to cheer you all day long.
If tiny little snowflakes land upon your face, It's a whisper sent from Heaven all trimmed with angel lace.
So let your heart be joyful if you're lonely, my dear friend, Hugs that are sent from Heaven a broken heart will mend.
An Angel's kiss
We go through life so often Not stopping to enjoy the day, And we take each one for granted As we travel on our way.
We never stop to measure Anything we just might miss, But if the wind should blow by softly You'll feel an Angel's Kiss
A kiss that is sent from Heaven A kiss from up above, A kiss that is very special From someone that you love.
For in your pain and sorrow An Angel's kiss will help you through, This kiss is very private For it is meant for only you.
So when your hearts are heavy and filled with tears and pain, and no one can console you Remember once again...
About the ones you grieve for Because you sadly miss And the gentle breeze You took for granted Was just..."An Angel's Kiss" - Author unknown -
' See you when we get there '
A million times we've needed you A million times we have cried, If love alone could have saved you You never would have died.
In Life we loved you dearly in death we love you still, For in our hearts you hold A place no one could ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you. But you did not go alone, For a part of us went with you the day God took you home.
When Angels sense you need them, And Angels always do ... They come, unseen, from everywhere To help and comfort you. They hover close beside you Till all your cares are gone, Till they can see you're ready Once again to carry on. Then some of them may fly away And take their gentle touch, To other hearts that need The love of Angels very much. But one, at least, stays with you As your constant friend and guide, For GUARDIAN ANGELS never leave, They're always at your side.
If I could take a minute out of each and every day. To hold my child close to my heart and kiss his fears away.
If I could take a minute out of each and every week, To play with blocks and peek-a-boo, tag or hide and seek.
If I could take a minute of any span of time. I'd never waste a second of the pleasures that were mine.
If he could crawl upon my knee and lay his sleepy head, upon my shoulder tenderly and dream of gingerbread.
I'd spend my time in total bliss and watch my small son grow, from babyhood to childhood, knowing all there is to know.
If I could stop my aching heart and put my mind asleep, If I could stop the flow of tears that are always on my cheek.
I only need a minute, Lord, I know he's safe with you. But there's something real important that I had no time to do.
If you could do it for me, Lord here's a message he should know, tell him that I Love Him, then I'll let him go. - Unknown Author -
So now you see What makes a Mother It's the feeling in your heart It's the love you had so much of Right from the very start Though some on earth May not realize Until their time is done Remember all the love you have And know that you are A Special Mum
"I'll lend you for a little time A child of Mine," He said, "For you to love the while he lives, And mourn for when he's dead. It may be six or seven years Or twenty-two or three, But will you, till I call him back, Take care of him for Me? He'll bring his charms to gladden you, And should his stay be brief, You'll have his lovely memories As solace for your grief." "I cannot promise he will stay, Since all from earth return. But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn. I've looked this wide world over, In my search for teachers true. And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you. Now will you give him all your love, Not think the labor vain, Nor hate Me when I come to call And take him back again?" I fancied that I heard them say, "Dear Lord, Thy will be done, For all the joy Thy child shall bring, The risk of grief we'll run. We'll shelter him with tenderness, We'll love him while we may, And for the happiness we've known, Forever grateful stay. But should the angels call for him, Much sooner than we planned, We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, And try to understand." ~ Author Unknown ~
Beautiful memories Silently kept of a baby we loved And will never forget
"PLEASE SAY THEIR NAMES"
The time of concern is over. No longer are we asked how we're doing. Never are the names of our children mentioned to us. A curtain descends. The moment has passed. Life's slip from frequent recall. There are exceptions: close and compassionate friends, sensitive and loving family. Still look. Still ask. Still listen. Thank God for them. For most, the drama is over. The spotlight is off. Applause is silent.
But for us the play will never end. The effects on us are timeless. What can be said, you ask? Please say "their names" to us. Love does not die. Their names are written on our lives. You may feel that they are dead. We feel that they are of the dead and still they live. They ghost-walk our souls, beckoning in future welcome. You say, "They were our children"; we say "They are". Please say "their names" to us and say "their names" again. It hurts to bury their memory in silence. What they were in flesh is no longer with us. What they are in spirit stays within us always. They were of our past but they are part of our now. They are our hope for the future. Please understand we cannot forget. We would not if we could.
We know that you cannot know, yesterday we were like you. Understand that we dwell in both flesh and spirit. We do not ask you to walk this road. The ascent is steep and the burden heavy. We walk it not by choice. We would rather walk it with them in the flesh, looking not to spirit worlds beyond. We are what we have to be. What we have lost, you cannot feel. What we have gained you may not see. Please say " their names" for they are alive. We will meet them again, although in many ways we've never parted. Their spirits play light songs, appear in sunrises and sunsets. They are real and shadow, they were and they are.
Please say "their names" to us and say "their names" again. They are our children and we love them as we always did. More each day.
"PLEASE, SAY THEIR NAMES"
- Written by an unknown author posted for all grieving parents -
I am still a Mummy; I was a Mummy from the start. What makes me a Mummy is that feeling in my heart. Pregnant I was, there was a baby inside me. For some Mummy's all it takes is to know, they have planted that seed. There is a bond that takes place from the moment that you know. Inside of your body someone special has started to grow. My baby didn't make it; he is in Heaven up above. In my heart I'm still his Mummy, I am filled with endless love. Something happens to a woman when her seedling starts to grow. Unless you have felt these feelings it is impossible to know. He meant the world to me and I will never be the same. All I need is for you to listen when I wish to say his name. He may be gone but he's not forgotten I miss him each and every day. Could you imagine that it would be any other way? What kind of Mummy would I be if I forgot my son? I had planned my whole life around him, all the great things we would have done. I may have another child, possibly another two. There is something I know for certain, he will always be my first child, my son, and I his Mummy too.
To those who say to get on with my life, I have. It is a different life, the life of a grieving mother. One with a tremendous amount to be thankful for, but also one with a lot to mourn the loss of!
Do not judge the bereaved mother. She comes in many forms.
She is breathing, but she is dying. She may look young, but inside she has become ancient. She smiles, but her heart sobs. She walks, she talks, she cooks, she cleans, she works, she IS, but she IS NOT, all at once. She is here, but part of her is elsewhere for eternity.
Do not dismiss us: we have shaped more than just the future generation. We have released all the tiny angels who are watching over you.
Open your eyes to US, and you just might see THEM. - Author Unknown -
Little Angel Our precious little angel, He could not stay long. Enough to steal your heart away Then force you to be strong. Enough to show you in a glimpse, How wonderful life can be. And how no wealth or worldly good, Could take the place of Thee. Little Angel in a cloud Looking down upon his family. Feeling forever proud That for a time, however short, He had the chance to be Our Little Precious Angel, So Beautiful to see. - Author Unknown -
Don't Tell Me That You Understand
Don't tell me that you understand, don't tell me that you know. Don't tell me that I will survive, How I will surely grow.
Don't tell me this is just a test, That I am truly blessed. That I am chosen for the task, Apart from all the rest.
Don't come at me with answers That can only come from me, Don't tell me how my grief will pass, That I will soon be free.
Don't stand in pious judgment Of the bonds I must untie, Don't tell me how to grieve, Don't tell me when to cry.
My life is filled with selfishness, My pain is all I see, but I need you and your love... Unconditionally.
Accept me in my ups and downs, I need someone to share, Just hold my hand and let me cry, And say, "My friend, I care." Author unknown
Our hearts are filled with memories The sound of laughter's ring You've moved on to your final rest A place where angels sing
A land where flowers never fade Where little children play They say true love will never die We'll meet again some day.
We little knew that morning, God was going to call your name, In life we loved you dearly, In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you, You did not go alone. For part of us went with you The day God called you home.
You left us beautiful memories, Your love is still our guide, And though we cannot see you, You are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken, And nothing seems the same, But as God calls us one by one, The chain will link again.
Author Unknown
To My Dearest Family
Where I dwell, there is no pain There is no cold, no dreary rain I find a rainbow every day And touch the sun's most warming rays I know you wish that I were there So you could hug and hold me near So you would see my bright eyes shine Yet I am yours and you are mine You ponder years that'll come and go The little one you won't watch grow But treasure me safely within your hearts For there we shall not be apart I gaze on you from heaven above I sense your thoughts and feel your love Please realise, here I am at peace I pray some of your pain may cease God did not create a "never" Hence, once again we'll be together Until such time that we shall meet In altered words may I repeat: I am safe...I am with you... I Love You,
~ Kisses to Heaven ~ Today I sent a kiss to Heaven I'm encouraging all of you to try For if I have shared this with you You have had a child die.
This kiss came from deep inside And I know that it truly was received Right after I had sent my kiss A calming breeze surrounded me.
Not only that, a wind chime rang From where I do not know But I felt my children smile at me And say they love me so.
Take a kiss within your hands And look up to the sky Release that kiss with loving care Now please try not to cry.
Once your kiss is off to them To Heaven's gate above Just look for any single sign Of your child's precious love.
~ Unknown Author ~
Dear Mommy and Daddy
I just wanted to let you know, That I made it home. The journey wasn't an easy one, But it didn't take to long. Everything is so pretty here, So white, so fresh and new. I wish that you could close your eyes, And that you could see it too. Please try not to be sad for me... Try to understand. God is taking care of me... I'm in the shelter of his hands. Here there is no sadness, No sorrow and no pain. Here there is no crying, No hurt for us again. Here it is so peaceful, When all the angels sing. I really have to go now- I've just got to try my wings. Unknown Author
Just think of me, and I'll be there, I'm always around, I'm everywhere, I'm in your dreams when you sleep, I hear your cries when you weep, Don't be sad, wear a smile on your face, all my sufferings in a better place, I've left this world, my bodies gone, but in your hearts my soul lives on, I know you'll grieve and suffer pain but one day soon we'll be together again
Author Unknown
I can see you but you do not see me. I am walking with Angels and eating fresh fruit from the trees.
I am still with family up here in the clouds, We too exchange smiles with the new love that we've found.
Be proud of what you've done, for me whilst I was there, The love you gave and how much you care.
During this hard time whilst we are apart, Keep me warm and cuddle me with your heart,
For the time will come again... when we will reunite, Together, forever in eternal light. Author Unknown
DO YOU REMEMBER?
Do you remember all the days, the hours, the moments That you shared your life with me, nestled in my womb? The feelings of joy, the happiness I felt knowing you were there? I do. Do you remember the day I lost you, that day filled with gloom? When I felt my world collapse around me, my heart filling with regret At the thought of you just dying inside of me? Yes, I do. Can you remember me talking softly to you whilst you were growing Inside of me? Telling you all of our plans, even your name? I can. Do you remember hearing my voice singing softly to you? Can you still feel all my love for you even though you have left? I feel it still. Do you feel it baby, do you remember me, your mummy? I hope so sweetheart, for you are still locked in my heart, locked so Tightly, and I'll never let you go 'til it stops beating and I see you In Heaven, and you say, 'Mummy, I remember you, yes, I remember it all.'
When God calls little children To dwell with Him above, We mortals sometimes question The wisdom of his love,
For no heartache compares with, The death of one small child, Who does so much to make our world, Seem so wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling The aged to His fold, So He picks a rosebud Before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them, And so he takes but few, To make the land of heaven More beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult Still somehow we must try, The saddest word mankind knows will always be Good~bye.
So when a little child departs, We who are left behind Must realize God loves children, Angels are hard to find...
~ Author Unknown *****************
I BELIEVE IN ANGELS
I believe in angels sent from up above Walking silently amongst us so filled with gods love
Miracles happen in the blink of any eye Could it be gods messengers sent from on high
So often we fail to notice Gods greatest gift of all Like the blessings we are given when angels come to call
Little things we take for granted and often fail to see Are Gods special gifts he gives for you and me
When our lives are troubled and hope seems far away Our guardian angels walk beside us to help along the way
Speaking not a word when are hearts fill with fear They bring comfort to our soul whenever they are near
Their spirits glow in the night winds in every star in the sky Till our days on earth are over and God calls us home on high
So when you feel a gentle touch its perhaps an angels wing Or hear heavenly music that only angels sing
Take comfort in the fact you had a heavenly visitor from above God has sent you his angels to fill your heart with love
You Are Loved May God reach down and love you in His own special way.
May you know you're loved, each and every day.
May you see, from God's dear eyes, the value of your worth.
May His love show you the most precious things on this earth.
Joyce C. Lock
I prayed for Angels to guard you night and day. I prayed they would hover and keep harm away. If you hear the swish of wings or feel a gentle touch. I know God heard my prayer today and loves you very much
An angel once lay beneath my heart, a promise of life to come; My little babe was resting there, yet, would not follow me home.
My tiny precious angel, had plans unknown to all, for my Angel heard the voice of God, and hastened to His call.
My Angel flew on fragile wings, into the Father's arms, to slumber there in peaceful rest, untouched by earthly harms.
So, slumber there my precious child, till I can come to you; I'll keep you here, deep in my heart, till my journey on earth is through.
~ Anne Geddes ~
Don't cry for me Daddy I am right here Although you can't see me I see your tears
I visit you often Go to work with you each day And when it's time to close your eyes On your pillows where I lay
I hold your hand and stroke your hair And whisper in your ear If you're sad today Daddy Remember I am here
I am Daddy's little boy We will never be apart For every time you think of me Please know I'm in your heart.
I Love you Daddy! Your Baby boy Kayden xxx
Fingerprints Your fingerprints are on my heart. Even though you never held my hand you touched me. Even though I never heard you speak you taught me.
You taught me about love. You taught me about caring. You taught me about courage. You taught me about faith. You taught me about happiness. You taught me about sorrow.
You brought me closer to myself. In the time I cared for you, how my life changed. Never to be the same again. Because of you I know I will somehow be stronger . Because of you I know I will be more prepared for life. All this from tiny fingerprints that touched my heart. Because of this You will live forever in my soul never to be forgotten. I will always love you. You are my child. Born Still But Still Born
GUESS WHAT MOMMY?
Guess what Mommy Heaven is great just like you said There's not much longer to wait
Guess what Mommy I have a guardian angel who comes at night. I told him I wanted to go but the times not right.
Guess what Mommy my angel came this morning while you were still in bed He came with a warning
Guess what Mommy when I left you in April so you could rest some more, I knew my time was soon;
Guess what Mommy when you were finally out of sight I told my angel the time is just right,
Guess what Mommy when you still didn't know I was gone My angel put his hand in mine, and I was no longer stiff or sick, I felt happy and fine.
Guess what Mommy I saw you crying from above and I knew how much I was loved
Guess what Mommy I saw the look on your face when they told you I was gone it looked like you'd never go on.
Guess what Mommy I saw you holding me tight I kissed you good-bye with my love, and tried to tell you I was alright
Guess what Mommy there's no more pain, You can go on with your life and not feel so drained
Guess what Mommy, I'll watch you all your days through and be like your Guardian Angel Just because, I LOVE YOU!
~ Author Unknown ~
" What we have deeply loved we can never lose, for all we love deeply becomes a part of us." Author unknown
DEAR MOMMY Before we said our first hello, the time had already passed. For when you held me in your arms, I had gone to heaven to rest.
I felt angelic tears down my checks, and I watched you as you weeped. I wish I could have changed it all, Your tears touched my soul so deep.
But mommy when you are sad, Please be assured I know. For death cannot take away your love, it will only continue to grow.
Time and distance cannot erase, a love and a bond so deep. There is no bond that can compare, and in your heart I'll keep.
When you are feeling far away, and missing me so much. Close your eyes and feel my wings, their soft and gentle touch.
Or at night as you sleep, I will join you in a dream. You will see me standing close to you, and we'll be lost within my wings.
So my dear Mommy, as you go from day to day, Find comfort in the knowledge, I am never that far away.
~ Author Unknown ~
Forget - me - not
I am the one god chose to take I am the one you could not awake I am the bud you see on a tree I am the one whose spirit runs free
I am the bulb you may plant in spring I am the sound when you hear the birds sing I am the one that could not cry I am the one he chose to die
My tears are the tips of the morning dew I am the one you never knew I am the rain that's left on the grass The test for life, I did not pass
I am the bees you hear hum I had no voice, to call you mum I am the forest that fragrance the wood To be with you if only I could
I am the sun, the clouds, the moon I am the bloom that went to soon I am the star that shines above I am the one you could not love
Forget-me-nots that's what we are I grow in your garden, not very far I am a heart broken in two I am the one who belongs to you
I am the one you could not share I am the empty space you see there So really you see me in every way Forget-me-not for everyday.
Author Unknown
Stairway to Heaven
Blowing kisses to Heaven That's what I can do Every time I want to say How much "I Love You"
Blowing kisses to Heaven I know you love me I am so blessed and so thankful That God sent you to our family
Everyone that met you Claimed you as their own Gentle baby sleeping skin so soft and fine A truest gift wrapped from God's heart to mine
Now you are recieving Blessings so deserved Every time I think of you I'll blow kisses to Heaven From my heart to yours!
I'M THERE INSIDE YOUR HEART
Right now I'm in a different place, And though we seem apart, I'm closer than I ever was ... I'm there inside your heart.
I'm with you when you greet each day And while the sun shines bright, I'm there to share the sunsets, too ... I'm with you every night.
I'm with you when the times are good To share a laugh or two, And if a tear should start to fall ... I'll still be there for you.
And when that day arrives That we no longer are apart, I'll smile and hold you close to me ... Forever in my heart.
MY BABY ANGEL
They say we each have an angel That we can call our very own But once, there was a baby angel That I never got to know
This child that grew inside of me For just a little while I never got to cradle Or see his beautiful smile
This time there would be no songs to sing Or embrace the joy, that a child can bring No tender cheek to kiss goodnight Or to teach his little name to write
For on that day, so long ago Still deep within my heart God was short a baby angel In the heavens up above But, I know this precious one Is getting much care and love
So on the day God calls me home My child I will embrace Feeling a joy, I have never known before As I kiss my Angels sweet face
Angel Friends
A beautiful little angel showed up to Heaven's gates, Confused and unknowing the plan that for him awaits. Then another little angel walked up and took his hand, And said, "Please don't be sad you left, you're in the Promised Land." "I'm glad to be here but I do not think I was to go, Perhaps there was a mistake, for my mommy wanted me so!" The little greeting angel gave a sweet smile and said, "My mommy wanted me too, but to Heaven I was led. You see, we do not get to choose when on Earth it's time to go. He gave us life, love and joy and a mother's womb to grow. The Lord still needs new angels to guide them down on earth. To watch over, comfort them, and help them see their worth." "Is there still a way that I can sleep in my mommy's bed?" The greeting angel grinned and said, "That luxury you will keep. I visit my mommy nightly and softly sing her to sleep." The little angel replied, "Then I think I'll like it here. I'll visit my mommy nightly and weaken her pain and fears. I love her and will keep her safe at night and in between, And let her know with a sweet memory that she is still with me." The greeting angel gave the new friend a big hug and said, "Until our mommy's meet us here, let's be best angel friends." "Okay," said the new angel, "that sounds good to me." Then the angels sat and played keeping their mommy's in sight, Humming the tune to the song they would sing to their mommies tonight.
Happy 3rd Birthday !!!! My Baby Boy / Andrea Smith (Mummy)
HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY KAYDEN !!!!!
hello my precious boy
Thinking of you today on your third birthday! I cant believe how much time has flownby your a big boy now! I miss you so much it feels like it was yesterday i got to hold you close to ...
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missing you / Neomi Phillip (Aunt)
my their newph i never saw you but it hurts to know that you are not here with us,i wish i could have bought you things,i wish i could have hold you.i know that there is a reason you had to go so soon,i love you.
Happy 2nd Birthday My dear Son / Andrea (Mummy)
Happy Birthday Kayden!
Cant believe two has gone by already i can remember holding you in my arms when I saw you for the first time.
I hope you have fun today my precious boy
Daddy sends his love too!
We miss you so much
Love
Mummy Daddy and...
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What a beautiful website / Renee K. (found on internet )
I happened across your website and it is a beautiful and loving tribute to your son. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Thinking of you at Christmas / Nanna Jane (Pround grandmother )
To my darling grandson Kayden. Well baby, another christmas without you. Mommy has put your stocking up alongside your brother Corey's, and although you can't be with us physically, we know you are her...
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